I Want A New Drug. A Vaccine Even. And A Functioning FDA, CDC, NIH, Etc…
from the one-that-won't-make-me-nervous-about-prematurely-dying dept
My cancer is back. This is disappointing but not unexpected; of the 2/3 of people who survive their first bout with ovarian cancer, 80% usually have it recur at some point. For me it was sooner than expected, and disheartening because, even if I beat it back this time, it will likely come back again and again at shorter and shorter intervals. On the other hand, it took long enough that I’m still considered “platinum sensitive” and eligible for treatment with platinum-based drugs, which are currently among the most effective for this cancer. Unfortunately, over time the cancer becomes resistant to it, which makes it very difficult to treat, let alone cure once and for all, and those treatments themselves are fairly caustic and difficult for the rest of the body to endure.
Fortunately there has been some exciting science happening, not just for my cancer but all cancers, to find treatments that, separately or in combination, are more effective, longer lasting, and less toxic in their side effects. For instance, some drugs are being developed that can look for certain characteristics of tumors and then deliver a chemo payload only to cells that have that characteristic, which is more likely to be just be the nefarious malignant ones, thus sparing as many of the rest of the body’s cells as possible the chemo toxicity. For ovarian cancer in particular, which is especially intractable, some drugs find ways to reset the platinum sensitivity so that standard treatments can work effectively again. Others try to defeat the mechanisms themselves that make the cancer so entrenched.
And then there are therapies aimed at getting the immune system on board to help the body rid itself of these nefarious cells. Immune systems spend their days attacking things that don’t belong in healthy bodies, and yet cancers happen because for some reason they can’t manage to recognize or deal with certain cells, which then run amok. So there are a variety of modalities being looked at to help bodies do a better job of hunting these cells down and destroying them before they can get entrenched. Sometimes these therapies involve drugs with direct effects on tumor cells or the tumor cell environment in a way that will deter their proliferation. Other times it’s a therapy designed to reprogram the body’s own immune system to recognize and destroy the bad cells, like through T-cell therapy, or, by working with the body’s own “natural killer” cells, which tend to do a better job of remembering the threat and staying on guard against it. And then there are a variety of vaccine possibilities, including some using mRNA technology, all of which are designed to do for an immune system what a vaccine is always designed to do: teach it what a danger looks like and give it what it needs to fight it, ideally without all this extra poison, and hopefully once and for all.
It is, in some ways, a very exciting time to be a cancer patient. Cancer is already not what it used to be, and even for my extremely lethal one I was happy to discover last year that a late-stage diagnosis did not automatically mean a death sentence—at least not right away. But it is also terrifying. Every patient is in a race with the science to hang on long enough to benefit from the fruit of these discoveries. Someday we may all be saved, but will our own rescue come in time?
And now, here in 2025, it is even more terrifying. Because while on the one hand we stand on the precipice of finally being able to tame this monster, we have the US government making the affirmative choice to let the cancer win.
The cuts in funding closing labs may be closing down the very science that was going to save the person you know and love. The hysteria maligning vaccines moreover threatens to close down some of the most promising avenues for delivering real cures. Meanwhile a politicized FDA stands to slow approvals for new trials and treatments. And a CDC that no longer can be trusted to control disease only gives aid and comfort to the pathogens that would seek to ultimately kill us all.
And for women’s cancers in particular, a politicized public health system that deems the specific science of our bodies to be icky and criminal deprives us of all sorts of avenues for treatment and cures. There is evidence, for instance, that abortifacients like mifepristone can defeat the mechanism that makes our ovarian cancers so resistant to treatment, because it may be the same mechanism that protects pregnancies that is now misfiring to protect our tumor cells. And yet, there is currently little science exploring this vector of opportunity because how can there be? That science is all but illegal. As nearly all science is now becoming.
Mankind has made enormous strides in understanding the science of the human body, down to an even molecular level. We increasingly understand how to maintain the health of these amazing walking chemistry sets that somehow manage to spark into souls. And yet this government would damn us back to the days when all we had were leeches and deity beseeches, thanks to a hostility to science that is a hostility to life itself. The gift civilization has given us, of being able to control our own medical destiny, has been cast aside by this government. And it means that people will die—needlessly, avoidably, and heartbreakingly.
No claim of controlling “waste” could possibly justify what the Trump Administration has done. The true waste is measured not just in lost science and aborted research but in the lives that will be needlessly lost with it, including the lives of everyone who could be using their own lifeforce to make this world better if they weren’t having to succumb to diseases we are capable of abating. The cost of these policy decisions far, far exceeds any supposed “savings” these misanthropic policies pretend to offer. There is absolutely nothing of value that these cretinous, gleefully ignorant anti-science policies could possibly hope to gain, and there is so much hope to be lost if they are not soon reversed so that we can once again have the world class public health system that we first met the 21st century with.
If they are not, and soon, I fear my own life will be doomed. And so will we be all.
Filed Under: cancer, cdc, fda, health and human services, research, therapy, vaccines


Comments on “I Want A New Drug. A Vaccine Even. And A Functioning FDA, CDC, NIH, Etc…”
…in the U.S.A.
Historically, people in foreign countries would sometimes travel to the U.S. to seek treatment, because the U.S. was at the forefront of many scientific fields—having intentionally attracted people who were fleeing fascism, 80-90 years ago. Americans who have cancer now should perhaps start looking into foreign studies, for similar reasons.
Science is not going to stop, but it might re-locate. Unfortunately, that takes a while, and the interstitial period will probably have a pretty high death toll. If it’s any consolation, as Norm Macdonald said, cancer can never really win; it can only lose or draw.
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Remember when Trump brought you the covid vaccine? (lol, announced 1 week after the election) You do, but you refuse to admit it.
Thank you for playing.
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Get absolutely fucked, dickbag. None of that means fuck-all because you ignorant twerps don’t give a shit ad have long ago denounced that, Currently you want less of everything science based.
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> article is about the author’s unfortunate relapsed ovarian cancer
> harps about the man with 34 felonies allegedly bringing the COVID vaccine instead
You’re disgusting.
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So one good decision makes up for dozens of stupid or malicious ones.
It’s almost as if you have some kind of selection bias.
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Remember when Trump said he didn’t care about the people in big cities dying from Covid, because they weren’t his voters? Remember him suggesting bleach and other idiotic “treatments”? Remember him wanting to stop testing, because the rising numbers of cases made him look bad? Remember the estimates of needless deaths, that wouldn’t have occured if Trump had followed scientific advice, and that run in the 100,000s?
You don’t, it seems.
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Only after asserting for months that it was no worse than a bad cold and there was no pandemic. He was forced to backpedal and would never have admitted anything if he could.
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The current year is 2025, dipshit. In 2025, Trump has been destructive to public health and medical research.
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What exactly is your point? Operation Warpspeed worked. Now days most MAGATs claim the Covid vaccine is poison. Do you get your boosters?
Now the U.S. is not doing any mRNA research even though there were wildly promising trials for pancreatic cancer with the promise of many more breakthroughs. All kinds of cancer research was halted & basically tossed.
President Asshole & his asshole minions are either stupid or hate our citizens.
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Yeah, so, here’s the funny thing about that: We do admit that Trump got the vaccine out. Operation Warp Speed started during his presidency, it was nearing its goal when the election happened, and the result of the operation was the production of the COVID-19 vaccine. To say otherwise is to lie or omit basic facts for the sake of refusing to credit Trump with the one sincerely good thing he did for the country as a whole while he was president.
But you wanna know why admitting that is funny? Trump can’t really take credit for it. Well, he can take credit for it—and he has!—but doing so pisses off his voting base, which has become increasingly anti-vaxx. His embrace of anti-vaxxers like RFK Jr. didn’t help in that regard. He helped get a national pandemic under control and he can’t even say it without his supporters getting mad. Now that’s comedy! 🤣
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The vaccine he he constantly decried and wanted to replace with lots of dangerous nonsense. Yeah, we are aware. He kind of did that.
Or, you know, just leavingthe fucking experts to get on with their work accomplishes the same thing. If he cajoled Congress for extra funding, good on him.
And this is why we all need to go out and support the candidates that will stand up to Trump. They need to know YOU are in their corner. Write an email, write a letter, make a phone call, go to a rally. Vote.
Trump hates Democracy.
Medical is fun
Not really.
Survival at Birth in the US, is around 28th
Survival of Woman giving Birth is around 20th
In the USA.
For some Odd reason, a group thinks the States Should do this work, make regulations, and monitor things From the states.
Insted of 1 location watching over all the states. Because Virus/Bugs/Contagions DO NOT Stay in 1 place. AND 1/2 of the Job is In the STATES reporting back to 1 agency, insted of trying to report to LOCAL States what is happening and Expecting them to DO SOMETHING in a hurry.
As to Cancer and Other problems. WE HAVE A RECENT PROBLEM. They are forgetting that WE are not the only Doctors in the world. Gathering info and Dat from ALL ovee the world, can give MORE data and More Experiments are done.
This is like the old Alchemists, All over th eplace, All doing as they wished, and Writing Books to spread around, TAKES YEARS.
They Arnt all doing the same Experiments, Or they ARE all doing the same thing, and Not Advancing. If you spread All the experiments Around to have 10000’s Being done, you will advance Faster.
But the USA has been going Anti Science for awhile, its a CORP ONLY thought, and its NOT working well. Look up the Diabetic drugs RECENTLY released about?? 10 years ago.. They Lost the Copyrights to the OLD drug. So they STOPPED making it, and sent out a NEW drug. People have died, with the change over. But Canada went to make the old Drug generic.
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Ever thought...
…that the cancer might be God’s way that He wants you to be with Him in Heaven?
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If an omniscient omnipresent omnibenevolent omnipotent deity who exists outside of time “wants” you to be with him in heaven sooner than later, then he’s not all of those things.
It’s weird how Christian describe god as a supposedly perfect being and then randomly attribute petty selfish capricious human motives to him like he’s a Greek god.
It’s almost like if a deity exists, Christians are the last people qualified to suggest what its nature or motives are.
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That raises a funny question.
Consider the following:
The question, then, is this: How big is God’s Heavenly dong? Any answer that isn’t “infinite” will count as blasphemy because it will deny either God’s manhood or God’s omnipotence.
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God, being alone, doesn’t need to mate/procreate (or are we back to the Greeks and Roman ideas), and shouldn’t need to void waste, so is it just for self pleasure.
It appears that god is a wanker.
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He certainly had a penis and stuff in the way-back, until people (at least the priestly and scribal classes) decided this wasn’t so cool anymore. Once you drag in the Greek philosophical angle, the first and later, second Abrahamic faiths kept upping the ante on the abstraction and perfection, until we finally get the very late omni-everything version and actual monotheism (at least claimed in theory). Although there are always competing ideas, and many seem to hold multiple of these competing ideas to be deployed, depending on context, for the convenience of belief and rhetoric at any given moment. It’s fun.
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I like your take more than mine, but the logical answer to the maleness of god in Abrahamic religions is attributable to the idea that the men wanted to be in charge. The “god made man in his image” was an accusation-confession where the men were in fact making god in their image and claiming a supernatural mandate for their dominance, when from an evolutionary perspective, they were just the most prolific rapist apes using force to dominate. Religion was just a form of control that didn’t require as much force. “You can’t challenge my authority. God put me in charge!”
“In the beginning God created man in His own image, and man has been trying to repay the favor ever since.”
― Voltaire
All that said, in response to your take, if god is infinite and god’s dick is infinite, then god is functionally an infinite dick, were he to exist.
Oh, but I suppose god does exist…at least that’s what I’ve been told by child molesters, trad wife fetishists, corrupt politicians, racists, homophobes, and high school dropouts.
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Look, folks—a death cultist!
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No.
Thinking about it now; no.
… this seems very far from the truth, considering all the criticism I read about it (even here I think). “World class” in this regard is defined by other countries now and has been for some time.
What shocks me most about US citizens is how much even left leaning people seem to delude themselves about their own society despite the numbers and rankings. Even there many worship sacred cows of how brilliant and ‘balanced’ the systems of state are constructed.
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There is also the confusion between the level of health tech, and potentially available levels of care, and what many actually get.
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“Public health system” would include all of that: research, actual care, billing, and the rest. And, to be fair, “world-class” doesn’t mean a damn thing; it’s just puffery, a term used to make a thing sound good without actually committing to any metric.
But to make a specific claim, here’s some actual data from Wikipedia’s page on cancer research: “Per capita, public spending on cancer research by taxpayers and charities in the US was five times as much in 2002–03 as public spending by taxpayers and charities in the 15 countries that were full members of the European Union. As a percentage of GDP, the non-commercial funding of cancer research in the US was four times the amount dedicated to cancer research in Europe.”
So, the U.S. actually is one of the best countries for doing cancer research. And, consequently, it’s historically been one of the best places to get treatment, in terms of survival rates—for those who can get treatment there. But, unless the stupidity of the current administration “innoculates” the public against such stupidity, I don’t see how that can continue.
Things will get a lot worse as people lose their medicare insurance and local hospitals shutdown next year
Trump just got his covid vaccine of course most American will struggle to get a vaccine they have to go to a doctor to get a prescription for a vaccine free in most countries
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“Things will get a lot worse as people lose their medicare insurance and local hospitals shutdown next year”…
I think you mean Medicaid, that’s the one on the chopping block now. Then they’ll go after Medicare.
I’m very sorry to hear that. I wish you godspeed in this fight, and in future ones.
While I am sure you have done lots of research on your on, I know research does not turn of all relevant data, so here are some resources that I have found helpful. I hope they are helpful to you as well. I encourage you to do thorough research on any sources used that you are not familiar with.
One specifically that I have used (though through a needless convoluted path) in my own life: https://nutritionfacts.org/blog/eating-to-treat-crohns-disease/
https://nutritionfacts.org/blog/which-nut-suppresses-cancer-cell-growth-the-most/
https://nutritionfacts.org/topics/cancer/
https://nutritionfacts.org/blog/are-doctors-knowledgeable-about-nutrition/
https://www.ellenwhite.info/cancer-caused-by-germs.htm
Hopefully you will at least find something in there helpful. And again, godspeed.
Only good ICE rat is a dead ICE rat. Better burn them, too, and salt the earth after, just to be safe.
You should ask the Supreme Court to tackle it. You know, that thing that you thought was regaining its legitimacy through terrible decisions like 303 Creative that you agreed with?
It is hard to pick a worst, but among some of the worst parts of these budgetary slash&burn projects is the research that has been abandoned halfway, or even more complete. Even when the expensive parts are done for now and it’s just time to have some grad students comb collected data for a couple of years, or it’s time to just maintain some mice that have received a new cancer-preventer so we can see if it works for long enough to make the expense pay off.
I Want a New Drug...
Great article, Cathy. Sums up what people need to know about our particular brand of cancer. And the idiocy of cutting research funding, now or ever. I selfishly want the smart people to discover a cure for me, which coincidentally will help everyone afflicted with something.
A pleasure to meet you on the OCRA chat.